As I sat down at Shelbies with my family, waiting for my Shawarma Poutine with Halloumi Cheese to arrive, I gazed at the clear blue skies with a knot in the pits of my stomach. It was a perfect afternoon. Yet it wasn’t. For a second I imagined what it would feel like if missiles […]
Social Media has been a very disturbing place in recent weeks. I donot like to speak on topics when they’re “hot” or “trending”. It’s just not me & I’m sure there are others like me. Some of us prefer our silence. We are not reactionary and when we open our mouths we wish only to […]
I say a distracted Salah. I rush through it. My child cries. I barely know what I’m saying now. I berate myself. I tell myself I’m ungrateful that I can’t focus on the One that blessed me with children. I tell myself I’m an awful person. I have the garb of a religious person but […]
-Why is this happening to me?- We’re taught to seek meaning in everything. we’re told to search for more, to look beyond the superficial, especially in difficult times. Yet In the times that I’ve been sorely tested i have been unable to find meaning. In my frenzy to make sense of my pain i have […]
I chanced upon a Nasheed I used to binge listen to in the early days of me starting my Quran journey. I looked at the date and it said 11 years ago. Subhan Allah:’) I’m not worthy of the love my Rab has showered upon me. There have been years of learning. Of forgetting. Of […]
I had a conversation with my neighbor Jenny, the other day that got me thinking. So what happened was that she happened to come out of her house in her Pj’s which I’ll admit I did not notice on account of forever living the PJ life 🤣 But she started apologizing profusely! That I’m so […]
You Told me to Ask: I looked at my sins I was distraughtI looked inside my heart, I was ashamedI looked down at my body parts, Never again could I look back up Yet You, You inspired in me the confidence to Ask!Despite it all, In Spite of it all, You lifted my hands!My sinning […]
White People making Small talk (committing many a faux pass) Dr Grant:-So will your child understand what I’m saying? Me: Yes but I’ll also help. Dr: What language does he speak? Me: Urdu fluently. English partially. Dr: Certainly your English is very good. Me: Well i had the privilege of growing up tri-lingual. My son […]
When you grow up like me, average Pakistani and then suddenly turn towards religion, your Contact’s list ends up having a variety of people which can be broadly categorized into 3 types:- Type 1:- The ones that respect you for your newfound knowledge and ask questions like:- *What’s the difference between Hand Slaughter and Machine […]